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Wednesday, June 30, 2004
sorry if some of the things seemed kinda harsh in that last post. i was just really upset and depressed. but like i told you over the phone a little while ago. im happy now, and just a little down about some things. like the running spot. that was really intense. i never thought we would ever cry together ever again after amandas party. thats why that memory just hasnt slipped away yet. it was such a sad moment but a great one. the kiss i got from you i will never forget. it was priceless. you, my dream right behind us, my hair blowing in the wind, and the sun setting. it was amazing. Ill never foreget it. ever. and like i said. its just gonna be a little hard for me when i see you having feelings for someone else. but its life, and i love you like a brother and i know you love me back. so it will be ok with me in the end and you know it will. but like i told you, i dont think Ill be having feelings for ANYONE anytime soon. i love ya Danny and i always will. you know that. like a brother. anyways. Ill call ya tomorrow so me you and Mish can go to see Spiderman! whoop whoop!!! goin' crazy as usual. you know me! ok well good night. sweet dreams. love ya like a bro! i always will! bye!:)
Jess at 9:50 PM | Comment ♪♪♪♪♪ Tuesday, June 29, 2004
i hurt so bad i cant think. the feelings that i have i cant handle. never being able to give you a kiss. never being able to hold you. never being able to run my hand through your hair. never being able to lay next to you in your bed ever again. the night at amandas party. i keep thinking about it and that hurts really bad. gazing into your eyes for the first time was AMAZING. me comforting you and you doing the same to me. never being able to share any of the incredible moments that i got to share with you. under the fireworks. at the running spot. in your bedroom. at the movies. at my house. at all the partys that i went to just because of oyu. do you remember the first time we went to the park together. walking through the sprinklers. it seems like just 2 days ago we were spinning in the grass at ruby park and kissing as we walked home. i couldnt stop smiling. everything was great. and within 6-7 days everyhting changed. i dont understand how this coul happen. i stayed up all night thinking in my bed of how to get you back. and.... i know that i have no power in this. just thinking of us not being together. i cant take it. when i woke up i thought it was just a nightmare. i actually had to go and read your blog again to make sure it was actually real. and that hurt. trying to make sure that we actually broke up? i never thought i would say that. every second all of my memories with you keep running through my head and i cant stop them. i wish i could just see your beautiful face. i remember one of my favorite memories. the first time you said i love you. we were in your pool. shivering and it wasnt even cold. we kissed a couple of times and just held each other. it was the greatest feeling in the world Danny. then you just said it and it brought tears to my eyes cause it was the first time that anyone had said it to me and it actually had meaning. i can remember everday at school that i spent with you. everytime you walked me to class. every luch we spent together. trying to dodge all the campus monitors. ah, and of course my surprise. no one had ever done anything like that before, and when you did, i didnt know what to say. i wont take it off my ceiling. its staying there. i remember when you waited for me after colorguard. then came our first kiss. our first movie. that was a priceless movie, and it was the best out of all of them. one of the longest and we both had absolutely no clue what was going on. as time passed we got a lot closer. i knew our relationship would never end. no way. nothing could stop. i wasnt going to end it and i knew you werent going to either. but i guess people change. i just dont understand how they can change that much in such a short period of time. especially this. i dont understand. i will never change my feeling for you. i came to that conclusion last night. thats who i am i cant change. i dont know. i wish i could just change you. i wish i could. this this is making a huge impact on my life, an it hit me really hard. to the point where i almost hurt myself. i had never come so close. i dont regret anything i ever did with you Danny. and some of the stuff i said might just sound really stupid now. but i was so sure of it that it sounds crazy. but i dont think it really is. im the only one in this. not even God can help me here. im the only one who can try to and make you change your feelings. i wish i could just do that Danny. i wish i could get you back. i would do ANYTHING!!! i feel so lonely. so incomplete. ya your there. but i cant always go to you like i used to. you were one half of my life, and i was the other. so with you gone, you can imagine how i feel. i cant belive this happened. no one can help me. not even my friends. all there gonna do is feel sorry for me and i dont want that. i hate the fact that im able to say im "single" it hurts sooooo bad. i hate life. fuck it. i could care less. maybe off somewhere else we could be together. i just need to see you today, and i will, but not soon enough. FUCK! i cant believe this happend! i hate my self. i hate myself for not doing the right things over the break. you said it wasnt gonna end up like Brian and Jessicas but it did. you had every intention to get back together with me an i knew this would never happen. i cant and wont be able to get over this. when i see you at Brians today...what am i suppossed to do? i forgot one. your mohawk. it was aweomse. you were so happy and i knew nothing was wrong cause at his house you seemed ok. it was me i made you feel like shit. or we wouldnt have had to go on break. im still remembering things. meeting your dad. sorry if talking about that kinda made you...ya. made you feel bad. walking through Lowes acting really stupid and having fun. graduation. it was awesome. i wouldnt have been so happy to graduate if i wasnt with you. i knew i was gonna go to highschool an still be able to be with you. but um, i guess not how i thought. this is unreal. i still cant belive this. i remember when i went over Brians and i was waiting for you and you were helping your dad. then you rode up on your bike with your hair lookin' sexy. your blue college t-shirt on. blue jeans, an your purple converse. i was just like wow! for some reason you looked way more sexy than usual. and i had missed you sooooo much and you just came up to me and held me close. and i felt like the luckiest person in the world. i still do, but i also feel like im the most hurt person too. i hate this. i cant take it an im afraid. im so afraid Danny. an you were the only one that i ever turned to and just love an it made me feel so much better. an i fi cant do it now, what do i do? i wish we could have gotten together after the break and then had this happen. well of course i didnt want this to happen, but it did and i just wish it would have happened later so i could have at least kissed you for the last time and let it be a good one. i remeber everytime we were together at eachothers houses. i know you said i was welcome and your welcome over here, but you have to admit, half the things we did we wouldnt do anymore and it just is, ya. i cant imagine myself with anybody else. i wont. it hurts too much. way to much. i wanna puke my guts out and die right now. i wouldnt do that. i wont ever be able to be with anybody else cause my feelings for you are way to strong, and i cant change them. but just knowing that your feelings changed so fast about me hurts. deep down on the inside. i feel like it was me an this is why our relationship is where it is. i remeber everone telling me how lucky i was cause they either liked you or thought you were totally hot. what is Samantha gonna think. i remeber watching Gothika, and just laying on you watching Preston eat elf cookies and talk to Samantha over the phone like he was her stalker. this is so painful for me. all of the times i ever spent with you and knowing that i would get to do everything again. but now there memories and it hurts to say that. wait marine world. that was great. it was so fun. then going swimming at your house. omg im gonna puke!!! im gonna go get reay so i can go over to Brians house and then be able to see you. wait i forgot one of my favorites. poprocks. all i can say is awesome! i wish i could do it again, cause i so would. but ya. i cried. it seemed like forever. right when i got off the phone with you. cause it was the first time i didnt say i love you when i really thought and meant it, but knew it was out of place. and i cant belive it. i cant believe this has happened. i wish you could just change Danny. but maybe you dont wanna change. i dunno. i know you tried so hard an i love you for trying. but i just wish everything would go back to normal. and i would wake up from this unbearable painful dream. evertime i was worried, i would always say, Danny im so afraid to lose you, and you would say. dont ever worry. it will never happen. well. it has. and i just think of evertime we talked about this and knew it would never happen. but its not your fault. you changed and couldnt help it. but i wish you could of, but its to late and i wish it wasnt. i love you Danny. i always will. if i could get back together with you. i would. but its not me that can do that. its you. and i know youve already tried an i want to thank you...for everyhting. i cant ever be happy like i was. i hate myself for that. but i will always love you. and i cant help myself and im sorry if it seems out of place, fuck it...
Jess at 8:29 AM | Comment ♪♪♪♪♪ Monday, June 28, 2004
why. why would this happen. what the hell did i do. im gonna freakin die. i swear to God. im gonna die. i told you i could never do anyhting right. Danny i need to talk to you. and i need to talk to you soon!
Jess at 9:32 PM | Comment ♪♪♪♪♪
FUCK LIFE!!!!!!!!!
Jess at 9:26 PM | Comment ♪♪♪♪♪
i just dont understand. i totally misunderstood you. i thought you meant it was over as in you were done thinking about your whole situation. i called Brain an he said, no it means how it sounds. and i dont know what to say. i love you....
Jess at 8:39 PM | Comment ♪♪♪♪♪
hey. everyone in my family is acting really retarded today. im like,well, this is interesting. usually its only me. but anyways. not like i really care cause its not affecting me in any way. im so glad i got to talk to you yesterday. it made me feel a lot better on the inside for some reason. well of course it did, i was talking to you! it made me really happy. and it was totally awesome that i drove by on the motorcycle and got to see you cause her dad wasnt even gonna take me that way, and he made a wrong turn and we ha to go around. so i was like awesome. that was cool. we reached about 70-78 miles per hour. your right... i truted you cause you said it was fun and it was! Casey got on and i was just thinking of you and Michelles like, your not gonna do it, and i said oh ya, for Danny. and i did. ha! oh ya! im studying Buddhism and its really awesome, my mom said i could convert to that religion if i wanted to but i ont think i will. it would be totally cool though. i bought 4 different Buddahs when i was in Roseville. theyre so cute! but ne ways. Ill talk to ya later or tomorrow. I LOVE YOU!!!!!!! kiss kiss!!! bye.
Jess at 6:31 PM | Comment ♪♪♪♪♪ Sunday, June 27, 2004
hey, good morning sleepy head. i didnt go to bed until 5 last night. i just couldnt sleep. ya know? but then i just totally crashed! im about to go to Roseville with my mommy and my sis and her friend, and of corse my little bro. were leaving in like 30 mins. or sumthin. but then when i come home im going straight to Michelles to record. we should be home a little after 2. ok, well just thought ide make a post cause i have nothing else to do. um...hopefully Ill talk to you later on today. i love you. bye.
Jess at 8:48 AM | Comment ♪♪♪♪♪
hey, i just fell asleep and woke up right now and decided to post for some odd reason! good night and sweet dreams. I LOVE YOU SOOOOOOOOO MUCH!!!!! good night. bye.
Jess at 3:54 AM | Comment ♪♪♪♪♪
hey, i tried to call a couple of times but you were busy. i hope your ok. i know that its just the break though. i hope. but ya. i went to the baseball game and it was fun. me my sister and her friend were there till like 11:30 dancing and going crazy to the rock band that was there. i missed you though. i hope your arm is ok, and i hope you had a good day at work:) i havent talked 2 ya in 2 days and it seems like forever. Ill try again tomorrow. im gonna be over Michelles though. were recording our songs. it should be pretty cool though. i hope that your whole situation is getting better each day. im gonna go 2 bed now. i love you with all my heart, and i always will. good night Danny. sweet dreams. im watching over you. and you know i am. get a good nights rest. i hope you liked the other poem i wrote.well, hopefully Ill talk to ya tomorrow. i love you again!!!!! bye.
Jess at 12:09 AM | Comment ♪♪♪♪♪ Saturday, June 26, 2004
i miss the feeling
of your lips against mine being held in your arms for a long period of time my hand in your hair our noses touching your lips on my neck my heartbeat rushing. locked in your closet on top of your bed what goes on must words be said? lying there next to you my head on your chest the safest place in the world and somewhere to rest. me gazing into your eyes you looking into mine like the night at Amandas party where we met for the first time Ill never forget when i saw you cry so a kiss on the cheek is how i replied. it was just like magic cause i was alone and no one cared then i looked over my shoulder and you were right there. then when i went to school i knew what was going to happen you walked up with Brian and me and Michelle just started laughin' you asked me a question i gave you a reply we were both so happy our smiles could touch the sky that was the best thing i ever did and you know its true answering your question and saying yes to you! Jess at 2:27 PM | Comment ♪♪♪♪♪ Friday, June 25, 2004
hey wats up. i thought ide make one last post b4 i went to bed. since ive already posted like a billion times today!!! ya i went to the creekwalk with my uncle and 2 of my other friends, Ashley and Elaina. it was ok. all we did was walk around, and then i didnt want to walk anymore cause i walked for 5 hours at marine world yesterday and i was tired, so i just sat there with my uncle and his friend and my aunt until 10. then we all went to applebees and ate. but i just had FRENCH FRIES cause i had already eaten. we just hung out there until like 11:45 and then we all went home. i cant wait until the baseball game tomorrow though!!! the band is so awesome!!! and fireworks!!! whoop whoop!! going crazy again. im not tired, so im probobly gonna go and read. but ya. i hope you had a good day. and i hope your arm doesnt hurt!!! i g2g and Ill call you tomorrow. i love you more than words could say. good night and sweet dreams. I LOVE YOU!!!!! bye.
Jess at 11:57 PM | Comment ♪♪♪♪♪
i fixed it!!!!!! it was my background. damn. i liked that one. but this ones cool too!!
Jess at 3:37 PM | Comment ♪♪♪♪♪
MY BLOG IS NOT COMING UP ON MY COMPUTER!!!!!!! I HOPE IT IS ON YOURS!!! I BROKE IT!!! NO!!!!!
Jess at 3:15 PM | Comment ♪♪♪♪♪
but im not sad...im HAPPY!!!! AND I LOVE YOU!!!!!!! whoop whoop!!!!!
Jess at 2:57 PM | Comment ♪♪♪♪♪
anYone cAn makE yOu
s m i l e - OR - c r y - *but iT takeS some¹ [ .s p e C i a l. ] to maKe you sMile wHen y0o alrEaDy hav tears iN ur eyes (i found this on Jens Xanga. it made me think of you and how you always make me happy when im sad!) Jess at 2:52 PM | Comment ♪♪♪♪♪
you....are.....SEXY!!!!!!!!!!! and your eyes are beautiful!!! your beautiful!!!! ok. im done!:)
Jess at 2:32 PM | Comment ♪♪♪♪♪
ps: i hope your arm feels better!!!!! I LOVE YOU!!!!! bye.
Jess at 7:54 AM | Comment ♪♪♪♪♪
hey. i dunno what to write? um.... i hope that im doing the right things with this brake. i feel like im not doing what im suppossed to be doing. like yesterday when i came over. after i walked right out of your house i felt really stupid for some reason. i just feel that i make it worse by doing shit like that and i got really pissed off at myself. but then i just thought to myself and i was like. stop worrying. stop worrying. and i came home and my mom gave me a picture of you and me at graduation and it made me feel better. then i played my guitar. and that always makes me feel better. it actually made me feel really happy. but dont worry. everything is ok now.i just cant wait until i get that phone call from you telling me that everything is gone. i can handle this and i know i can. i love being challenged. ever since i was little. and this is one of the biggest challenges ive ever had. so i know that i will get through this and so will you! i have faith in you Danny, and you know that i trust you with my life. everything will be ok in the end. you can do this. i know you can. but ya. today is the creekwalk and i dont think im gonna go cause i dont feel like it. maybe. i dunno? and tomorrow is the baseball game with fireworks and that awesome rock band is gonna be playing. if you wanna come you can. but if you just want your time to think, its fine. i COMPLETELY understand!:) other people are coming too. casey, michelle... and other people. you get it. i dunno how to get ahold of you though. like, i dont wanna call cause i dont wanna like bug ya. if ya know what i mean. ok, well, i might call later. and you know how you said i could still talk to you or have your shoulder to cry on even while we were on our brake? well, i might be needing that soon. i hope not though. my mom just told me that my grandpas kidneys are really close to failing. it just makes me think of how i would feel if i actually lost him, cause i never thought of it before. so if you get a call from me saying i just really need to hold you then thats why. but i know that were on brake and if you dont feel like talkin to me or sumthin its ok. i understand:) i just cant wait till everything is better.soon i hope. soon. ok, sorry this post is so long! i didnt really notice. I LOVE YOU DANNY!!!!!!!!!! and i hope you liked your letter me and Mish from 11-3 in the morning! it was fun. ok. im gonna go. kiss kiss. i love you. bye
Jess at 7:09 AM | Comment ♪♪♪♪♪ Wednesday, June 23, 2004
Hey. i wanted a new background so this is what i got. i thought this one was pretty cool. everytime that little error thing pops up just click yes. i dunno why it does that but oh well. ya. i was just about to call ya but then somebody called for my sis. i hope you like that little quote thingy. i do. i love you so much!!!!!! i g2g get the phone but ya. i love you again and forever!!! bye!
Jess at 2:24 PM | Comment ♪♪♪♪♪
I hope you like the poem!!! Ill give you a call a little later. bye sexy! I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!
Jess at 9:17 AM | Comment ♪♪♪♪♪
Ive never had these feelings
for anyone but you they tell me that the love i feel is very real and true. You're the love of my life and always will be I'll love you forever and I hope you'll love me. You've made me a better person from deep down inside and now I'm so happy I'll never have to hide. I can be myself around you and I know that you won't care I can act really stupid without you giving me weird stares. I'm still young but I'de never think twice I know I'm complete now because you're part of my life!!! Jess at 8:40 AM | Comment ♪♪♪♪♪ Tuesday, June 22, 2004
Danny. the love of my life. sorry it took me so long to post tonight, i kinda fell asleep after i got off the phone with you! but anyways. everything is completely ok with me. and i know that you know that anything you ever have to do like this is ok with me. i cant really talk that long cause my moms making me get off now, but i promise to post more before i call you tomorrow. im always here for you while your going through this, and im always gonna be here for you, no matter what!!!! I LOVE YOU SOOOOOOOOOOOO MUCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i will always keep my promise!!!!!! and you know that!!!!! i love you sexy!!!! kiss kiss!!!!! bye sexy!!!
Jess at 9:50 PM | Comment ♪♪♪♪♪ Sunday, June 20, 2004
hey. the reason that Vona said she didnt invite you to her thing was because she said she didnt have enough tickets. funny how she didnt tell Casey that the first time huh? well, whatever. i had WAY more fun with you anyway!!!!!!!! i g2g Ill call ya later I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! kiss kiss. bye.
Jess at 10:35 AM | Comment ♪♪♪♪♪ Saturday, June 19, 2004
THE POST BEFORE THIS WAS OFFICIALLY MY LONGEST POST EVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I LOVE YOU AGAIN AND AGAIN AND AGAIN AND...FOREVER!!!!! GOOD NIGHT, SLEEP TIGHT. KISS KISS. BYE!!!!
Jess at 10:09 PM | Comment ♪♪♪♪♪
hey, i know your probably gonna post later on tonight. but im gonna post now, cause im gonna go read before i go to bed. i know, amazing isnt it!!! but for some reason thats what i feel like doing. SO IM GONNA GO DO IT!!!! the fourth harry potter book to be exact. whoop whoop!!!! im going crazy and i love it!!!!! your right. i am weird!!! did you say that, or did i say that, i cant remember. well either way its true!!! ya, i didnt really think i would get so emotional 'bout your daddy leaving, but what can i say... i got really close to him really fast. hes an awesome person Danny and you should feel really lucky. and i mean that. for some reason, i felt like he could just be my dad too. i was so sad cause i feel like i just said hello and goodbye at the same time. ive never felt like that before. it hurt in a way. it really did. i just cant imagine how you felt. if i make you happy though then im glad your happy an im really glad that you dont focus on the negative things in life. it helps a lot. but i know you miss him an i do too. sorry if talkin' about this kinda brought back the memories of him leaving today, but i just want you to know that im always there for you in any situation, whether it be good or bad. im always there. and thanks for lettin' me come over today. i really didnt wanna go to that dance thing anyway, and if you get a chance tell Brian that im sorry i dint go. but i was not gonna let you walk home alone, and me just drive off with a bunch of our friends. nope. couldnt do that and wouldnt do that. i love you too much!!!! and you know it!!! i had way more fun with you anyway. i always do!!! when i was with you today when we were walking home from Caseys, i just felt like i could do anything crazy and you wouldnt care, and neither would i!! thats why i just fell in the grass with you and walked through the sprinklers and just was myself. cause like i said. thats why i love being with you. i dont have to hide the true me and i can just let it show, and it makes me feel awesome!!! well its like 10:00 now and i started this post like 20 minutes ago! im still gonna read though. but i gotta find the book first. ya. that would help!!! i dont know where it is. oh wait!!! i just found it!!! i looked under the computer desk for some reason and its right there!!! cool!!! im crazy. but ya, im gonna go read now and Ill call you tomorrow cause since its fathers day im not gonna be goin' anywhere. Ill be at home all day. well good night, sweet dreams, and sleep tight. Im watching over you, and were together in our dreams. I LOVE YOU SEXY!!!!!!!!!! kiss[chokes on gum] kiss!!!!!! j/p!!! bye. i love you again!!! oh, and "ps" ive been craving!!!! to go back to the 'running spot' with you and Brian or whatever. or just me and you. i dont care who goes, i just wanna go back cause it was awesome!!!! but ya, just a thought we might be able to put into action later on. ok, gonna go now. I LOVE YOU!!!!!!! good night!!! kiss kiss!!! bye.
Jess at 9:40 PM | Comment ♪♪♪♪♪
hey. i love you. im talking to Brian right now and im gonna go over his house today. to do his hair, i mean "attempt" to do his hair! ya. im glad you had fun with your daddy yesterday. and dont worry about the creekwalk. we can go next week. im sorry that you hurt and i hope you get better. if i can help, you know you can call me, and Ill be there waiting. i g2g. I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!! kiss kiss. bye sexy!
Jess at 8:47 AM | Comment ♪♪♪♪♪ Friday, June 18, 2004
hey. dont worry about not going today. they have it every friday, and i would sooooooooooo rather you go with your daddy anyway. i totally understand. ya. about me and my mom. everything is ok now. i really didnt want to do it, but i just sat her down and said i was sorry and that i wouldnt act like that again. it was hard for me. but i did it because you. you encouraged me... and you didnt even no it. from you just talking to me over the phone, i was just like, ya know what, i love him so much that i am not gonna let this day go to waste because that would really suck, and im happy now cause i just talked to him, so i think im just gonna make the rest of my day happy, and i did! Danny i love you so much. your awesome!!!! im sorry if i made you feel crummy cause i told you that i got in a fight with my mommy. thats why i said i was sorry over the phone...but i couldnt get ahold of anybody else, and you told me that you were always gonna be there for me when i just needed someone to talk to, or a shoulder to cry on, and i never thought i would ever actually have to rely o you for that, but yesterday i did, and you were there for me. so i just wanted to say thanks. and i will always be there for you!!! i love you. dont worry about not comin' with me and Mish tonight. we'll do it next friday or sumthin' k? i love you sexy, go have fun with your daddy, and when he leaves, remember that im gonna be there for you if you need me... i always will be. i love you again and forever!!! kiss kiss. bye. WOW!!!!!!
Jess at 11:43 AM | Comment ♪♪♪♪♪ Thursday, June 17, 2004
Danny. im so sorry it sounded wrong!!! i was really trying to say i love you!!!!! he wouldnt let me though!!!!! i told you i would never dump you!!!! and i was about to say i love you and i said i, and then Brians like no dont say it!!!!! and then we got to the pizza place we tried to call your house like 5 times and it was busy. then we got to the bowling alley and played arcade games, and while Brian was playing, i tried to call again, but it was BUSY!!!! then we almost got jumped and i got really scared and im like Brian, i need to talk to Danny, and hes like, come on, i stuck up for you and i wouldnt have let you get hurt. but i was like ya ok, i need to talk to Danny. then i called your house again and again. but it was busy!!! between me and Brian, we called about 9-10 times while you we were at the baseball game. then he gave the phone to me out of nowhere and was like here, its Danny. and then me and you talked and stuff. but ya. i am so sorry that you heard me say that, cause i didnt even think of how it could have sounded. im so sorry that i made you feel like that Danny! now i feel like shit. dammit!!! i hope you read this soon so you understand everything. remember that i love you with all my heart. always and forever. oh and the reason im kinda like trying to be friends with Brian is just to make sure that everything is ok about that one situation. and trust me. i am now 100% sure it is. Ill talk to you later. I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!! bye.
Jess at 8:18 AM | Comment ♪♪♪♪♪ Tuesday, June 15, 2004
ok. now i really g2g. I LOVE YOU SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO MUCH!!!!! good night. sweet dreams. sleep tight. and remember that im right by your side while your sleeping. good night. i love you again and forever. bye sexy!
Jess at 10:10 PM | Comment ♪♪♪♪♪
i cant stay on anylonger. i g2g. Ill talk to you tomorrow about the movies. we are gonna go though. I LOVE YOU SOOOOOOOOOOOOO MUCH!!!!!! and ya Brian probably told you that i just worried like crazy when you were gone huh? ya. its just like one of the phases or whatever. ide be fine, and within 10 minutes ide be a nervous wreck. i love you. bye.
Jess at 9:50 PM | Comment ♪♪♪♪♪
your sexyness wont run out.. but the time will!!! i am so bored im saying the cheeziest things!!! help me God. ya. where are you. did you get lost? j/p! im still here. hurry an get on!!!(that did not sound right!!!) ok. im gonna go waiit some more!!
Jess at 9:34 PM | Comment ♪♪♪♪♪
WHERE IS MY SEXY!?!?! just kiddin. but not about you being sexy...cause you are and you know it!!! im still here if you didnt noitice:) j/p!
Jess at 9:25 PM | Comment ♪♪♪♪♪
i know you'll probably get on around 9:30... thats fine with me. i wish i could hear your voice over the phone!!!!
Jess at 9:15 PM | Comment ♪♪♪♪♪
sorry i keep posting every freakin 2 minutes. but im bored. im gonna go onto bored.com
Jess at 9:10 PM | Comment ♪♪♪♪♪
still here and your still sexy...
Jess at 9:07 PM | Comment ♪♪♪♪♪
Ill wait 4 you. just post when you get on sexy!
Jess at 9:03 PM | Comment ♪♪♪♪♪ Monday, June 14, 2004
hey. i miss you so much. i just got back from marine world a little while ago, and it was fun. it was just me casey and michelle. i hope me you and your daddy and whoever else are still gonna go tomorrow cause im lookin' forward to it! but ya. i hella missed you while i was there today. everything is better when your around. it always is...and it always will be! im about to go to the mall in 5 minutes to go get my Von Dutch hat!!!!! im so excited!!! i know over a hat that im gonna pay 50 bucks for, but its awesome!!!! well, im about to walk out the door soooooooo I LOVE YOU!!!!! kiss kiss kiss!!!! bye sexy!!!
Jess at 6:17 PM | Comment ♪♪♪♪♪ Sunday, June 13, 2004
hey. im bored. ive already watched 3 movies and played my guitar for like 3 hours. its crazy!!! i miss you a lot. caseys party is gonna be cool. icant wait 2 see you. well i g2g to another party before i go to hers. so ya. im gonna be like 30 minutes late. i wouldnt go to this other party, but its like really important. its not like a party...its kinda sad. a going away party type of thing. Ill tell you more later. i love you. bye.
Jess at 2:48 PM | Comment ♪♪♪♪♪ Saturday, June 12, 2004
i just read Jessica P's blog and Brian A. and Brittney are going out and Lin and Chris Wisecarver are to. kind of a shocker about Chris and Lin... i didnt even know that they liked each other. oh well. thought you might wanna know:) I LOVE YOU MORE THEN WORDS COULD EVER SAY!!!!!!!!!! bye sexy. good night again. sleep tight. sweet dreams. kiss kiss. I LOVE YOU!!!!! bye!
Jess at 11:06 PM | Comment ♪♪♪♪♪
hey sexy!!! thanks for goin' with me tonight. i had a lot of fun. and the fireworks were awesome this time. caseys party should be pretty cool tomorrow. i cant wait till 4!!! im not gonna have anything to do until then. but oh well. I guess that means im just gonna be watching movies all day tomorrow!!! im sorry that you have to work. but Ill be thinking about you the whole time your there from 9 in the morning to 3 in the afternoon. sorry i couldnt go with you to take you home. now you get what i mean when i say my aunt gets pissy. ya i felt bad cause i thought i was gonna go with you, and then she yelled at me and made me look like a complete idiot. oh well. im usually one all the time anyway! j/p.(only when me and Michelle are together!!!) well i miss you already. and im sorry i didnt say i love you when we went back into my room when we got your camera. i was kinda pissed off cause i wasnt gonna get to take you home. but ya. i dont think i said it enough today. so Ill say it again. I LOVE YOU
I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ok. theres my i love you's for tonight. and that is not EVEN enough!!! but i g2g to bed now cause my dad says its gettin' late. but ya. i just want you to know that i mean every one of those i love you's, and i always will. there never just words...well technically they are...but you know what i mean! they all have meaning to them every time i say it. but ya. i gotta go to bed now. sweet dreams. good night, and sleep tight. remember... im right there with you when you fall asleep. you just cant see me. but im watching over you. im your guarding angel, and i always will be. good night to the love of my life!!! kiss kiss. I LOVE YOU AGAIN, AND FOREVER!!!! bye! Jess at 10:49 PM | Comment ♪♪♪♪♪ Friday, June 11, 2004
hey... me and Mish just got back from the concert at the creekwalk. the band sucked ass, but we had hella fun just walking around and seein' a whole bunch of our friends. i cant wait till tomorrow!!! i miss you so much! hope you had fun at Brians, cause i would feel bad if i went out and had all this fun without you, and you just did nothing over his house. ya know? cause of course, no matter where i am or what time it is... Ill always have fun with you. trust me. we'll always have fun.(if ya know what i mean!) j/p! anyways. im startin' to get a little more respect around here for once! thank God!!! i swear its like a freakin' miracle! ya. my day got better towards the end. i told you i was lookin' forward to going to the concert tonight. just hanging with friends and havin' fun. but ya i miss you so much. i just see you everytime i close my eyes. and it makes me feel that much closer to you. your comin' over my house early tomorrow! i dont care if we seriously have to kidnap you. your coming over! well, my cats telling me its time to go to bed. shes been staring at me while ive been on the computer for the last 20 minutes. shes tired and so am i! I LOVE YOU DANNY!!!!!!!!! SOOOOOOOOOOO MUCH!!!!!!!!!!! good night and sweet dreams. sleep tight. and remember, im right there by your side. even if you roll over and dont see me... im there. sleeping right next to you, and im off in my own dreamworld with you...together were asleep in each others hearts. forever! good night again!!! I LOVE YOU!!! bye.
Jess at 10:50 PM | Comment ♪♪♪♪♪
testing... DANNY IS DEAD SEXY!!!!!
Jess at 5:31 PM | Comment ♪♪♪♪♪
hey. god i love you so freakin much!!! blogskins is still not working and its pissin' me off! but they said it should be fixed in a couple of days. but ya. i had so much fun yesterday! of course. i always do when your with me! we have to take your daddy to marine world before he leaves. i dont have any plans for anything cause its the SUMMER!!! whoop whoop! ya. im psycho. but thats ok! j/p! i gave you my jacket because i didnt want to leave you last night, and i knew that when i got home i would have a little piece of you cause i have yours, but you wouldnt have anything of me. so ya. thats why i gave it to you. and your tie was awesome. i slept with that too last night. anyway. oh ya. the party tomorrow at my aunts house starts at 4:00. you will probably come over early tomorrow so we can just like take you there without you trying to get lost finding the place! but ya. and i did not waste my money on you!!! dont say that!!! why would you think that? come on now!:) your the love of my life!!! nothing is considered wasted when it comes to you. you know that. i know you do. if you need any money, i would give you anything you needed. and i wish i had 800 dollars, but i dont and im sorry. i wish you didnt have to move. it sucks!!! but... i g2g. Ill talk to you later. kiss kiss. bye sexy! I LOVE YOU SOOOOOOOOOO MUCH!!!
Jess at 7:46 AM | Comment ♪♪♪♪♪ Wednesday, June 09, 2004
hey. my clock says its 9 and sometimes bloggers clock is wrong. i really wanna call but your probably still sleeping. and i dont wanna feel stupid if i call right now and you are. because its kinda early and i called really late last night! i love you so much. bye.
Jess at 9:04 AM | Comment ♪♪♪♪♪
hey. i know you said you would call at around 7-7:30 but its ok. i woke up at 7:30. i know you r probably sleeping so its ok. i just really really miss you, and i hope that i can come and see you today! I LOVE YOU DANNY!!!! kiss kiss. bye for now.
Jess at 8:11 AM | Comment ♪♪♪♪♪ Tuesday, June 08, 2004
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Jess at 8:07 PM | Comment ♪♪♪♪♪
no... Lin didnt twist your words. i know what you said. its ok. everythings better now. she just told me about the whole choosing thing and how you WERENT gonna do it. and i knew you werent. she told me that if you did either way would be bad cause no matter what, one of us would have been hurt. she also told me about the story she told you about how she chose Jen over Brian and how it was a big mistake. and she also said about how she had close tabs on every body in our group, but especially you. and we started yelling at each other because i asked her what the hell was going on, and she wouldnt tell me. and we kept yelling, and then somehow the words "its really bad" came out of her mouth... and my heart just dropped.i kept yelling because i told her that you were the love of my life, and i needed to know why she was watching you so closely. i yelled, hes not gonna dump me right. and she said no, thats not even close, its not even about you. and i said then what the hell is it about. she ended up telling me everything and ya. i just got off the phone with you, andcouldnt finish my post cause my sis was on the computer. but ya. my aunts friend Shane is over. i thought you might kinda feel weird when i was like, oh Shanes here. but no, hes just my aunts friend. and hes like 34 so like ya. nuthin to worry about. and even if he was my age. ide give him one look and just be like,ya,my boyfriend is the sexiest person ALIVE!!!! I LOVE YOU SO MUCH DANNY!!!!!!!! and im better now. Ill talk to ya when you call back.bye!
Jess at 6:47 PM | Comment ♪♪♪♪♪
hey, im not hurting anymore... im just really glad i caught you over at Brians house yesterday and was able to talk to you. it really helped and i was glad to know that you were ok. me and Mish went to the movies today, we saw the day after tomorrow, and i thought it was really good! except the fact that we were both right under the vent and were FREEZING!!! but it was all good. i missed you when i was there. the movies are 100 times better when your there. and yes. i mean that!!! im gonna try and call you a little later. I LOVE YOU!!!!! bye.
Jess at 5:29 PM | Comment ♪♪♪♪♪ Monday, June 07, 2004
Danny. i need you... i cant say what i have to say over the computer. it wouldnt be right. i have to say it to your face. its not that bad. i just need to talk. im hurting...like ive never hurt before. ive never had these feelings, and i need to talk to you. i tried calling your house, but you were sleeping. i can just see you asleep. like an angel. with your eyes closed, but yet, so awake... off in your own dreamworld. hopefully your peaceful when your asleep, because i think that when like certain people are awake right now, everything just seems to be miserable. god i freakin' need to talk to you so badly!!! I LOVE YOU DANNY!!!!!!! you are my life!!! and i mean that the way it sounds. i live because of you. im gonna go wait by the phone now for you to call. i love you more than anything in the entire world and you know that. i am right there by your side, no matter if your sleeping or awake. im always there watching over you. to make sure your safe. im in your heart...always. and your in mine. i love you Danny.bye for now.
Jess at 8:29 AM | Comment ♪♪♪♪♪ Sunday, June 06, 2004
i just tried to call you but your mommy said you were out looking for Brian. she said that you were comming home in a couple of minutes and that you would just call me. so ya. hopefully she remembers cause i really mis the sound of your sweet sexy voice!!! i really wanna meet your daddy too!!! he sounds cool. he'll probably think im weird though o_0 but ya im gonna go finish my walls they are soooo close to being covered!!! ive been inside my house for like 6 hours straight. let me just tell you...IT SUCKS!!!! GOD I FREAKIN MISS YOU SO MUCH!!!!!!! OK. NOW IM GONNA ACTUALLY GO. BYE I LOVE YOU!!!!
Jess at 8:00 PM | Comment ♪♪♪♪♪
DANNY YOUR SO FREAKIN SEXY!!!!!!!!!! and im about to go to the mall right now. so i cant talk long, but ya. I LOVE YOU SOOOOOOOO MUCH!!!! bye you sexy thing!!!!!
Jess at 11:52 AM | Comment ♪♪♪♪♪
hey Danny, the party was awesome!!! of course it was all you! my poor hair looked so awesome when i came over, and within a couple hours it looked like shit! j/P. but ya. i really like it when its straight. and that did NOT sound right! but ya. your so SEXY with your hat turned to the side. even Michelle said so. shes like, Jess, look at Danny! and i was like ya? and she said, he looks really cute! and i was like, he ALWAYS looks cute!!! ya. your just pure sexyness!!! and i still have cake in my hair... i just found that out. anyways. ya. call me after you get home from work. man, i really wanna see your daddy. i had a dream about it last night. and i died... again! but it wasnt because of you, i ont know why i died? oh well. im still alive here, and thats all that counts. but ya. hopefully youll remember 2 call me later cause i miss the sound of your voice!! I LOVE YOU SOOOO MUCH!!! i g2g. bye!!
Jess at 8:45 AM | Comment ♪♪♪♪♪ Saturday, June 05, 2004
man! i wanted you to come over. but Ill see you at the party. hopefully. if your mommy doesnt change her mind. and isnt your dad suppossed to be coming today? i dont remember? but ya. michelle and casey are going to the party at 3, and i have absolutely nothing to do until then, cause im probobly gonna end up going with em. i miss you so much!!!!! i stayed up till 11:00 last night finishing my walls until my mom came upstairs and took the stapler away from me! and i was like, well that sucks! cause i was wide awake, trying to stay up as late as i could so i could sleep in really long(i woke up at 7:45!it didnt really work!) and wait 4 you to come over, but actually waiting for the party now i guess. its ok, as long as your there its gonna be awesome!!! Ill call you later to talk to ya. I love you soooooo much!!!!talk to ya later! bye.
Jess at 7:54 AM | Comment ♪♪♪♪♪ Friday, June 04, 2004
hey,i tried to call but your line was busy for like 45 minutes. but ya. my mom said you could come over tomorrow afternoon, at like... 1:00. i tried to make it earlier, but thats the best i could do! man. i thought i was good at convincing?!? oh well! at least your coming over right. and we got the WHOOOOOOOOOOLE summer. ya, sumthin' to look forward to. i had HECKA fun today. it was awesome!!! we gotta do that more often!! oh, and by the way. i kinda feel like i got Brian more mad at you, so if i did im sorry:( i just dont think hes gotton over the whole thing with me yelling at him. but ya. Ill see you tomorow. I LOVE YOU!!!!!!! sweet dreams, and good night. dont let the bedbugs bite(they might have maracas!!!!) j/p!!! i just had to say that for no reason, im weird before i go to sleep!!! but i g2g. sweet dreams again!!! kiss kiss. I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!! bye.
Jess at 10:07 PM | Comment ♪♪♪♪♪ Thursday, June 03, 2004
Danny. i read your blog,and i love you sooooooo much!!! i know that you are taking a big risk, and its scary, but im willing to let you go through with it!!!! thats how much i trust you. dude,if you get too scared...then dont do it. i know you want to do it for me, but just think if something happened to you while you were trying to get to me. i would feel so bad. i want you to do whatever you want,and i know that you will be careful.so ya. i g2g,but I LOVE YOU SOOOOOOOOOOOOOO MUCH!!!! sweet dreams. kiss kiss. bye.(the shirt thing was fine!!! dont worry about it!!!)i love you and good night.
Jess at 9:56 PM | Comment ♪♪♪♪♪
hey. sorry i acted like that at your house. for some reason i feel really stupid. its something i always do...i just get nervous about things like that!!! ya know, you moving. but since i know that its like a 50-50 thing, i wasnt really worried about that. i was more worried about your safety if you had to try and come back. but after i came home and thought about it, i promised myself that i wasnt going to worry about you anymore. of course i care about you, and fear for your safety, but what im saying is that im not gonna be like, oh hes gonna get hurt, hes only 15, but thats it, your 15. i trust you, and you know that. i know you wont talk to anyone, and since you took boxing, it makes me feel better about the fact that i know you can defend yourself if anyone tried to do anthing to you. i know you can handle anything that gets in your way, and like you said, look at the reward your gonna get when you come back. but anyway the reason i feel stupid is cause i worry all the time, and i get like that all the time, and i know i told you about how i get, but i just felt really stupid when i actually got like that in front of you cause i felt like i made you worry about me when i was really ok. i dunno. im weird. but i dont think you are. no matter WHAT anyone says!!! anyway. I LOVE YOU SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO MUCH!!!!!!!! Ill post later. kiss kiss. with poprocks!!!! I LOVE YOU AGAIN!!! bye.
Jess at 7:53 PM | Comment ♪♪♪♪♪ Wednesday, June 02, 2004
nevermind. they must have fixed it! oh well! I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!bye.
Jess at 10:59 PM | Comment ♪♪♪♪♪
the clock on blogger is wrong. my computer is the right time, and it says its 10:53 right now. it'll be 10:55 by the time i get off!!! I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!! good night. sweet dreams!!!! bye.
Jess at 10:52 PM | Comment ♪♪♪♪♪
ya,my mom keeps telling me to go to bed, but like everyone is still up. her, my brother, and my sis. ya. now shes telling me 2 get off the computer. well, i g2g. I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!more than anything!!!!! kiss kiss. sweet dreams. good night. and dont let the bed bugs bite!!!(they bite hard!!!!) j/p!! that came out of nowhere!!!!but ya. I LOVE YOU AGAIN!!! ALWAYS AND FOREVER!!!! bye>
Jess at 10:16 PM | Comment ♪♪♪♪♪
hey. i love you. i really dont think i say it enough. even if i do say it every 5 minutes! but ya. i decided to update b4 i called ya. ahhhhhhh!!! your so sexy!!! i cant wait to see you tomorrow!!! just hearing your voice or even just thinking about you makes me giggle and smile!!! i love you!!! im gonna go upstairs now. ya,when i got off the phone with you,i was laying on the ground in my room,and i rolled over onto my right side,and it freakin' HURT!!!!! then i got up, and i had to keep my back bent and i couldnt even stand up strait!!! and walking down the stairs to give the phone to my mom was even harder!!!but i guess im ok now. i think im gonna go call you. i miss the sound of your voice! kiss kiss! I LOVE YOU!!!bye.
Jess at 9:17 PM | Comment ♪♪♪♪♪ Tuesday, June 01, 2004
Hey, i tried to call you but you were in the bathroom your brother said. so Ill call you in a little while.im sorry for yelling at Brian, and i feel really bad about the whole situation. what if i am really acting like that? does it show? i dont know. im gonna call you in a couple of minutes so we can talk about everything. I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!! so much. and you know it!!!! kiss kiss. bye.
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