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Saturday, October 30, 2004
hey. well all i can say is that last night was great. ya. me and Mac were gonna go to the movies, and just try and get some alone time there, and i know what your thinking, 'oh so they can just make out like every 5 seconds' no. thats not why. people dont understand how hard it is for us to hang out by ourselfs. i mean, were together at school, but were always hanging around our friends too, and thats not a bad thing, but what im saying is that, we never really get any time by ourselves to just talk. yes talk, all humans do it. and last night at the football game, me and him were there to get away from everybody for one night, just one night to be by ourselves together. and we couldnt go to the movies, cause we couldnt find a good time to go, so we decided to go to the game together, just us two, kinda like a date. to be alone, and just talk. so ya. thats why i didnt feel like being around 1000 people last night, cause me and him just wanted to be alone. is that so much to ask? and the way people reacted to it, it kinda hurt. i mean, just cause i didnt hang out with them for one night? and they get all pissed at me? well sorry i have life? damn. and it almost ruined my night, and Mac told me not to worry about it, cause the time we had together was rare, and we didnt get to be alone often. and that changed my thoughts. people putting words into my mouth, and choosing my actions for me? what the hell is that? saying,why did you just come from over there? were you making out in the corner? what were you doing behind the bleachers the whole time?' ya know, and it hurts to know that your friends cant even believe you when theyre the ones who dont know whats really going on. but i didnt let it ruin my night. i knew what the truth was, and thats all that mattered. so there. maybe next time they will actually believe me when i say all we were doing was talking like normal human beings. and you can believe what you want, but thats your opinion. well, im out. Halloween is tomorrow, and that should be bunches of fun. bye.
Jess at 9:06 AM | Comment ♪♪♪♪♪ Sunday, October 24, 2004
all i can say is that. boys suck!
Jess at 10:01 PM | Comment ♪♪♪♪♪
ya. last night. awesome. thats all i can say. people said the dance was boring, but being there and getting to spend almost 3 hours with Mac was awesome. i had lots of fun and slow danced a number of times. i havent been that happy and smiled that much in a long time. it felt REALLY good. so ya. i had fun, and i didnt think that it was that boring. tomorrow i have guard, and after that i might go to the movies, yup. um....thats about it. i gotta go get ready to go to church with Michelle. im suppossed to leave in 15 minnutes, and ya. i just kinda woke up. so i gotta make this fast! lll talk to you people later! chow.
Jess at 8:54 AM | Comment ♪♪♪♪♪
ya. last night. awesome. thats all i can say. people said the dance was boring, but being there and getting to spend almost 3 hours with Mac was awesome. i had lots of fun and slow danced a number of times. i havent been that happy and smiled that much in a long time. it felt REALLY good. so ya. i had fun, and i didnt think that it was that boring. tomorrow i have guard, and after that i might go to the movies, yup. um....thats about it. i gotta go get ready to go to church with Michelle. im suppossed to leave in 15 minnutes, and ya. i just kinda woke up. so i gotta make this fast! lll talk to you people later! chow.
Jess at 8:54 AM | Comment ♪♪♪♪♪ Saturday, October 23, 2004
ya. i didnt get to finish my post last night cause it was 'too late' it really sucks, its like, i cant even do what i used to do cause i have to worry about all this shit now. and some people know about my issues i have with worrying, but we wont go there. but lets not talk about the negative things. lets talk about the posative things. and how great last night was. i mean, im actually happy. like, REALLY happy. and i havent had this feeling in a long time. god im so freakin happy, i wanna smile for the rest of my life, but with my injury i have right now, it wont work. but i can smile sooooooooo big on the inside. i wanted to cry last night cause.. cause...i dunno? like it was a happy cry. it felt good. and now that my spirits are totally up, i stopped worrying about my siezure i had, and what people say about me. because really, i dont care what they say. cause now, i feel like last night, someone actually taught me not to worry, and that they would be there for me, right by my side.....whenever i was i trouble. and when i heard him say that last night, i was so happy. just knowing that even though i went through all that shit on wednesday night, that people didnt care about that, they cared about making sure that someone was there for me when i needed them. so ya. Mac made me really happy last night. and i feel so great. oh! and im sorry that im not gonna be able to make it to your party tonight! Ill talk to you guys later. im out. peace!
Jess at 8:49 AM | Comment ♪♪♪♪♪ Friday, October 22, 2004
hey people, havent updated this thing in forever! ya i know, but ive been busy. ummmm. lets see. tonight i went to the football game, and it was really fun. everybody was there, but i wasnt even gonna go to this game. the only reason i went is because Mac was going, and ya. we hung out the whole time and had fun. im suppossed to go to a dance tomorrow, so ya. that should be fun. and im afraid to go to sleep tonight, cause im afraid that im not gonna wake up. like im gonna have a siezure in my sleep and then die. its not funny, and people laugh at me now. i act like im laughing with them, but really, it hurts. a lot. it was very hard to go through that, and now i have to be carefull about certain things for the rest of my life. whatever. just try to lay off on the jokes guys. it would make me feel better. im out. peace!
Jess at 11:52 PM | Comment ♪♪♪♪♪ Monday, October 11, 2004
it didnt happen. no one knows for sure what went on. were all just waiting for the truth to come out. maybe they did come? maybe they didnt? no one knows for sure. we just have to wait and see.
Jess at 9:20 PM | Comment ♪♪♪♪♪ Thursday, October 07, 2004
oh. my. god. its really happening. Blink is on the road right now, and they should be here in about 5 hours. i never thought in.....well forever, that dreams really did come true. i cant believe this is happening. i used to never even dream of being able to play guitar. i dont even remember how i got started. and then, forming a band was the coolest thing on the face of the earth. sending a demo cd to a producer that used to be totally famous, having him like it and wanting us to go down to LA and record a cd was a dream come true....well thats what we thought. but this? opening for Blink182? its amazing. i was shaking as i talked to Michelle over the phone. i cant believe it. do you know how many kids are out there that want to form bands, or have bands and want to be famous and write songs and send demos to people? "being famous" ya, we used to not take it seriouly. and most people our age that have bands dont. they just say it to say it. "were gonna be famous" but really. i want you guys to think about this. how many 14 year old girls have rock bands that get their demo cd's accepted, and thewn get to perform in one of their most alltime favorite bands? its shocking how lucky we are. and i mean, thats not even it. after the football game is over, im not gonna be leavin in my daddys honda, me, Michelle, Casey and Becca are all getting picked up in an escalade limo. how freakin cool is that? i mean, from our highschool football game? and i didnt think that i was gonna get to ride in the limo. haha. YES!!! and then, were freakin spending the night, with Blink182 at the rich ass mansion house!!!!!!! oh my god!!!! its crazy. its a miracle. its a dream come true. cause were gonna spend the day....WITH BLINK 182!!!!!!!!!!! hahahahhhahahahha!!!!!! well i gotta go get ready. and before i leave. i would like to thank ALL of my friends that support No Good Gracie. cause without you guys, we would be nothing. thanks. Ill see you people tomorrow at school. or better yet, at the concert!!! peace out.
Jess at 9:08 PM | Comment ♪♪♪♪♪ Sunday, October 03, 2004
ya. well i might as well update. ummm. yesterday was our first competition, and we surprisinlgy won first in colorguard. i was proud of everyone. but some people said we didnt deserve it. well thats their opinion. and its not mine. so ya. the band won first in marching, and the drumline won second. so for our first review, we did pretty darn good. ya. im goin over to Michelles house today to practice for the concert, then goin over to Amandas, then back to Michelles. so ya. thats pretty much my day. nuthin really to do right now. im not really tired anymore. but ya. Ill talk to you people later. peace out. chow!
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